GIVE UP

as a girl, yes n yes i would say, mmg mmg betul pown ape yg dlm box tuh, mmg kalau pompuan tuh dah malas or letih dah nk brharap ngan uolls, cengginih la jdnyer,

my friends sometimes still lagi 'weyh mirah, tuh tuh ur crush' which pointed to the person yg ak dah confess tuh. n tipu la if ak tak tengok kat die kan, tngok tu still lagi tngok or berpaling kat die but deep down, i mean deep deep down tak rase pape dah, rase mcm malas dah nk layan, malas nk amik tau, lantak die lah ngan hidup die, well hidup die bukan hidup aku pown. 

and somehow aku pulak yg trase pelik ngan diri aku sbb tak tau la ape yg menarik sngat smpai ak suka kat die, jauh dari taste aku plak tuh, ntah pape je, nasib baik x smpai ke next level, sbb aku xde la suke giler-giler smpai kalau terserempak tuh, tibe2 jadi kaku membatu je kan, xde la smpai mcm tuh, seriously ak pown xde pape prsaan kat die skrng nih, thanks to my family yg advice kat aku, klau tak aku rase aku still lagi terhegeh-hegeh kot. hmmm, well sometimes hdup sndiri or single ni pown best jugak, xde sape yg nk konkong kau! easy nk kemana pown boleh trus sappp, hilang cenggitu je...

tapi smpai bile nk hdup sndiri kan, mesti nk berteman jugak, tp why not skrng nih u plan betul2 perjalanan hdup u, ape yg u nk buat selain bercinta cintun nih, i mean takkan la nk jd cg je kot, other than cg, ape lagi yg u boleh buat? kemahiran lain? mane tau biler hebat dlm kemahiran lain u boleh open up a company, sometimes day dreaming or angan2 mat jenin boleh jd kenyataan... insyaAllah

MY OPINION JUST LIKE YOURS, GIRLS!

CONFESSION

Confession, d most stupid things that I had done in my life. Really rase bodoh sngat, tp actually ade side bagus die biler u confess ur feeling to someone known as LELAKI!

Ok, ni mmg tajuk berani mati la sbb ak nk cerita kat kawan2 ak pown malu, tp I think better ak tulis jer sbb boleh jd pngajaran utk korang kan, I mean for girls. Ak nih jenis yg susah skit nk suke kat someone but when I love someone, I really mean it. lepas yg dulu punyer hmmm, yela mybe sbb tibe2 die kene pndah johor n jrak jauh, so, paham2 sndiri la ye. It took 7 years until I open my heart to love someone but aku rase prsaan ak skrang dah jd mcm dulu balik, so lepas nih focus keje je la kot… langsung x rase pape dah.

Once upon a time, ak fall in love wif this guy yg nak kata really ikut my taste pown tak, mmg jauh terbabas dr landasan my taste of guy punyer check list! Jauh sngat dr taste ak, boleh kate mmg sngat-sngat-sngat-sngat jauh tertinggal kat belakang. But I think I love him sbb die suke buat lawak selain die nih jenis mudah mesra ngan orang, peramah la orangnyer, tp satu je yg ak x suke is, die suke buat status marah-marah n at d same time gune kate yg agak kesat jugak la, n I seriously hate it!

Tetibe ade hormone berani dlm diri ak nih yg sbbkan ak dengan berani nyer confess my feeling, owh dammit, malu weyh, tp mane tau kot-kot dapat kan, tp actually even ak suke die tp takdelah smpai tahap ak nk couple or nk kawen ngan die, ckup skdar die tau ak suke die, that’s it.

Malu sbb confess tu dah satu hal, tetibe tmbah pulak ngan hal yg unexpected happen plak.

Nak dijadikan cerita utk buat ak malu bertingkat-tingkat is when I forgot to uninstall messenger dlam my mum’s phone which ak install n sign in gune my fb account.. and TADAAAA! my sis read all of d conversation n told my mom n sibling. Nice! Really nice.

I thought diorng akn menganjing ak kan but something amazing happen as they give me a lot of good advice n well I’ve list some of it below >>>

My mom, sis, brothers punyer advices: (for girls only)

1)      Tlong jngan confess kat laki sbb u will look sngat desperate,                 terhegeh-hegeh n murah, I mean sngat murah, senang sngat nk           dapat.

2)      If u dapat laki tu pown, senang je laki tu nk cari lain.. well becoz he     does not really love u, its becoz mybe sbb xnak jatuhkan maruah u,     so he accept je la kan (risiko nk kene tinggal tu tinggi).

3)      Kalau dpat pown, that girl really really terpaksa berusaha lebih untuk   pastikan laki tuh still syang uolls, n u know, laki ada ego, ego yg           tinggi I mean, so letih la kalau u are d one yg duk berusaha sorang2..

4)      Better tggu je la laki confess, nih mmg nasihat abang2 aku la yg           boleh di consider sbgai lelaki sejati or tulen.

My sis punyer advice: 

if u want to know whether this man is sngat suitable for u or boleh kate boleh jadi suami kita la kan, u will feel sngat selesa ngan die, she means u will feel warm and bukannyer always rase nervous or tergedik-gedik when u wif him, got it? N boleh plak tetibe ak trjumpe this picture, duk diam-diam n fahamkan diri uolls

As for me, that confession is my FIRST N LAST confession, after this even aku suke mcm mane pown kat someone, I think better to lose him rather than confessing my feeling. Fullstop.

MY OPINION, GO FIND YOURS. 

The Marriage Plan

-      Salam, well dis is my first post for my yg entah ke berapa blog pon ak tak hengat! Yela ak nih jenis manusia yg malas nk tulis, biler ada mood baru rase nk tulis, kalau tak mmg haram jadah nk tulis menulis nih haa!

Tajuk kali nih is (the marriage plan) gitu haa… mcm nk kawin esok lusa je.

Ok, actually rase terpanggil nk tulis sbb baru aje balik lepak la kononyer ngan kengkawan n tibe2 muncul la topic camnih, mcm ala-ala ‘biler korang nak kawin?’

Well for me, nak keje dulu, biar rase dulu duit gaji sendiri kan, pastu nk bg parent kite jugak, bagi duit kat parent nih actually not a custom to be followed, it is just biar parent kita rase being appreciated for what they had sacrifice for us before kan. Depend masing2 la kan, but untuk ak that’s it la.

Setiap orang ade plan masing-masing, ade yg nak kawin before abis belajar so that nnti dpt posting tmpat sama, so suweett, ade jugak lepas abis blajar terus kawin, masing-masing ade pendapat sndiri n so does me…

My marriage plans go like this:

1)      Habiskan blajar dulu (setahun lagi weyh,… tazzabar)

2)      Keje dulu setahun biar dapt merase gaji sndiri n buy anything that I     want

3)      Travel dulu dlam mase setahun tuh n pegi la semua tmpat nk pegi or   kawen dulu n travel sama-sama wif hubby. I mean backpacker yg         takde travel guide hensem ganteng bangat tuh n lets guide ourselves   la kat negara org nanti… well I want to have that kind of travel.

4)      So, dsbabkan setahun lepas kawen tuh dimanfaatkan utk travel n         whatsoever, pasal anak tuh… hmmm I want lepas setahun or mybe       dua tahun… why? Becozz…

a.       Biar la kita kenal betul-betul perangai, attitude, karenah hubby   kite dulu, sedeyh die, marah die, romantic die, n everything         bout him la kan

b.      Bincang dulu bout ke mana hala tuju marriage kite nih, dri segi     kewangan, n so onnnnn (bukan dri segi kewangan je ek, bnyak   lagi, bercabang-cabang, but kewangan almost the main point       la)

5)      Agak-agak dah stabil emosi, kewangan bagai baru la sedia nk               tanggung amanah baru which is anak kan, ni tak! Lepas kawen terus     dpat ank, kewangan ntah kemana, baru nak kenal suami camne dah     kelam kabut n hasilnyer kelam kabut jugak.

Its not ak nih jenis yang boikot kawen awal or just kenal gitu- gitu dah nak kawen n plan nk bercinta lepas kawen, but just somehow duduk jap n think for a while,

If kita decide nk kawen after kenal for a few months which we claim kite dah kenal die luar dlam but for real we are not, then terus nk kawen… let’s say frasa ‘bercinta lepas kawin’ ni betul2 menjadi, thank GOD la, but if not which our hubby punyer perngai sngat2 la vise versa ngan kite punyer perangai or die nih jenis laki yg kite benci giler-giler, korang nmpak x risiko die cmner? 

Kalau couple sempat lagi nk clash but kalau dah kawen? Nk cerai ker? Pastu nk kawen lain plak? Well I don’t think so… that’s why for me kite kene kenal betul2 before we decide nk kawen kalau boleh kenal die bertahun2 baru la kawen pon takpe asalkan we know him luar dalam kan….

MY OPINION NOT YOURS, APPRECIATE MINE…